So yeah - Merry Christmas! Don'tchya just love this time of year? The time when you cand listen to the same carol 50 times a day in 100 different versions. Then go shopping and want to seriously whack-a-shopper or maybe even whack-a-cashier and spend double the amount of time at the cashier line up then you did in the store. I have to say the BEST part is, Christmas lasts for about 20 minutes and when all the gift opening is done it's just back to normal days. I find that part quite hilarious.

So anyway - I got my new laptop It's pretty.

OH and the BEST part of the holidays this year, (which is so f*cking ironic) the day after I leave to go home for the holidays b/c I was finished my assignments and handed them all in - I get an email from my prof about missing assignments. So I tried to figure it out and I panicked (mainly because I don't want to fail). So yesterday I got everything organized and when I was about to hand it in - the college website for email and storage is down. Yay panic again. So this morning - and right now - the website is still down. So I called my Grandma for something to do and I told her what happened and she advised to go to Belleville right away and figure all this stuff out. WHY didn't I think of that yesterday? or thursday? Damn panickyness X| Anyway - so hopefully that's what I'm going to achieve this afternoon/evening. My Grandmother also told me that she doesn't understand how I get myself into these messes. And frankly I don't either. And we both hate it lol. So I suggested to her that I should go to church and ask God what I did and to forgive me because this is really not funnny and it's starting to suck. My Grandma laughed and BTW the whole going to Belleville thing isn't happening today...try something else...o wells...

*SIGH* What am I to do with myself? If I fail I think I will surely curl up in a small ball and die.

OMG myloyalist is now up and running!!!! He basically said that everything's all good now. GOD I HATE THAT. Not the fact that it's all good now - the fact that I panicked and thought the worse and then it turned out to be NOTHING! GRRR lol

Yeah I know it's possible I've been thinking of taking all of my artwork down and re-doing it. I don't know. I just want better looking stuff on my dA page. It was a really rough November. Lost my job, (not for any big reason - it was under the 3 month period so he didn't really need an excuse) my Ginger babes was put down AND I had a really bad road block for the longest time about how to do my assignments in XSI. Now I have 6 assignments I need to start and finish before the Christmas break. I'm really starting to hate the look of this lab mainly because I've been in it for so long. I'm also starting to loose A LOT of passion (if not - all) for the independent project I'm doing - which is REALLY bad. I'm just so sick of looking at and working on the characters - lol it's horrible.

Christmas art work is working good for me. I've got 3/7 rough sketches done. I just hope they turn out the way I want them to. I definitely want a new icon for my name - any ideas? UGH I'm going to go home. I'm in dire need of a nap. I also have to defrost some bacon for tonight's dinner. Whee!

Feeling good Got my motivation back to do XSI work. I have some new art work that I'm going to upload this afternoon. BTW If anyone wants art work from me for Xmas let me know ASAP so I can start working on it now. I've got ladydragonreborn's sketch done and I'm still working on the design of YukeraYasha's. Been drawing a lot lately - it feels good Anyway, I should get back to doing school work. Laters

So yes, rawr lol. October has been busy seening as though I have a full time 3rd year course that's insane plus a part time job. Good news is, the job is awesome. Bad news is, it's challenging to balance between the two. I'm starting to get a little annoyed at the fact that every time I come into class my figurines are in a sexual position. Sure it was funny the first time, but that's it.

Anyway, I have found a guitar player (his name is Julien) that wants to perform for open mic night in November and I've decided to sing. I'll be signing up for the event tonight because the 19th is the last day to sign up. Then there will be an audition process (of course) and then the real deal. I hope I make it to the real deal but I hope I don't screw up insanely b/c I'd be so nervous.

We have to perform 4 songs and so far we've chosen:

Sweet Dreams - (lyrics eurythmics style and guitar marilyn manson version style)
On The Bright Side - (by Nevershoutnever! really good song, cartoon video on youtube)
Chasing Cars - (another good slow song really)
????? - (still deciding the 4th song, I'm thinking either Broken by Seether ft. Amy Lee or Dophin's Cry by Live)

We also decided to go by a band name - hey why the hell not right? Julien thought of "The Last to Know" which I think sounds really cool so we're going with that. So technically that means I'm in a real rock band now XD lol. YAY

So it's September and 3rd year has started off to a great start I feel pumped, motivated and eager to start the year. I have an awesome idea for my independent project and I'm going to work my ass off to achieve the best that I can give. I got a part time job (it's A&W but it's better than nothing - and it's WAAAAY better than Adecco) I'm not going to procrastinate this year, I can't afford to and neither can my future if I want to get anywhere successfully. A few people don't believe me, and that's understandable because of the reputation that I've given myself, but that's all going to change this year. I'm breaking that reputation and giving myself a new and better way to live (I guess lol).

I hope to get a placement where is working. It's in downtown Toronto but I'm sure I'll live, it would be a really good placement to get Then I hope after that I could get a job at Jellyfish Pictures in Central London, England. I've always loved England ever since I was really little and I think that working there would be awesome. So there's my plan for the end of the school year and it's going to be my main motivation I'm also going to improve on my art work (and 3D work) as much as I can this year. Wish me luck.