.:x:.Feeling Odd.:x:.Speaking of moods, I've been doing this mind over mood book - and it kinda made me feel a little okay. I really am frustrated, disappointed and getting a bit mad at my drawing skills tho. *sigh* I just don't know how to improve - I look at book after book after book and I feel like I've gained nothing. I try to practice, but I can't seem to draw for hours and such every day. I can only draw when I feel motivated and inspired by something. Otherwise I don't enjoy it as much.
I love art and I love drawing but I don't know if I'm write for this Computer Animation stuff all the time because you have to keep doing it constantly. I'm thinking of going into the Special Effects aspect for a career, but I'm scared. I have no idea what I really want for a career and so I turn to others to get their opinion, but even that doesn't do any good.
I was thinking of doing another program (maybe at Kingston or even Sheridan) after college to further my studies or to have a back up plan if Computer Animation fails. However, I feel like I'd never be good for Sheridan. My work sucks too much
that and my boyfriend thought that I wanted to take another program because he'll be in school for a couple more years and that really pissed me off. First, everyone thought I went into Computer Animation because YukeraYasha went into animation and now I'm taking another program because my boyfriend will still be in college for a couple years?!?! That really really REALLY pisses me off (sorry but I need to rant). It makes me feel like everybody thinks I need to follow someone that I can't lead my own damn life. However, on the good side, I do feel very excited and pumped for 3rd year. I have a couple plans in mind for my independent project just in case one or two aren't approved. I'm so happy my boyfriend and I got an apartment together
so I guess that's why I'm feeling odd. I feel frustrated and pissed, but also happy and excited. August better not be slow - OR ELSE !!!! X|
Frustrated
Devious Comments
personally i dont think that Paul meant it that way, you've said yourself that you can see yourself sacrificing a lot to be with him, so for him to think you're holding yourself back for him i think it's not completely unfounded. but i can see what you mean.
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